"Life is a journey of sweetness and sorrow, of yesterday’s memories and hopes for tomorrow. Of pathways we choose and detours we face. With patience and humour courage and grace. Of joys that we’ve shared and of people we’ve met who have touched us in ways we will never forget."
I saw this and automatically thought how apt! However there is an expectation that we are accepting that the journey ending before we are ready is ok, well....
So it’s been 5 years, 5 years of following this journey of life without you mummy. Of course you gave me the most fabulous tools with which to cope and the most marvellous siblings, Toks Ronke and Yetunde. However I have to be honest there are moments when I feel very sad, mad even that you were taken from me ( well all of us really) to face the rest of the journey without you. It maybe corny but the fact is I think about you every day, it doesn’t matter what I am doing or what's going on around me, it could be that odd glance in the mirror, ( smile) although I’m not as yellow as you, I leave that to Yetunde!! Sometimes I may be chastising my husband wagging my finger at him and I really have the feeling of you. I don’t know really I just feel cheated.
There was so much of the journey left, that mother – daughter thing that just cant be replicated. I am your firstborn, and you were always the number 1 champion of my cause, my mum and I really miss you, for your beauty for the funny things you would say, for cheering me on, for petting me, for nagging me and all that. I know I have to accept that God loves you more than is humanly possible, does that make it any easier? I think not! I pray you are resting in peace with the angels. Lots of love…me, Nike your first born. xxxx
Aww, may she rest in perfect peace Auntie xxx
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