Ok, so i went back to SW last week and while I am really disappointed at having undone all my good work from a couple of weeks ago, honestly i cannot complain. I have had a good week if I am honest, but I find myself realising just how easily bad habits take root in your attitude and behaviour despite months years even of good work to eradicate those habits.  So it would appear that `i am likening this attitude and behaviour to being a drug addict or alcoholic because they can get clean live a perfectly good life and then bam something happens and they are back in the old ways. 

This is where my moments of issues arose because being back at work after the break, i found that at approximately 3pm i would want a snack and  a sweet one at that, the pull towards chocolate or tea and biscuits was great and sometimes the desire was over whelming - yep you guessed it on more than one occasion I gave in. hmm just what am I going to do with myself? Really and to be honest some angst is beginning to set in, dont know why it just is but i do know that it is centred around my lack of discipline. Why i cant just be satisfied with 2 biscuits, why does it have to be 1/2 of the packet, why 4 slices of bread instead of 2? Are you recognising a pattern here. 

My point is that 2-3 weeks of not following my normal routine, my tae kwon do and zumba classes were not running, I was not even going to work and before you knew it,  i was into baking, all because I watched the final of the Great British Bake off! In case you don't know, baking is an under developed skill of mine that comes out to play every now and again. So when you are at SW the use of that particular skill really needs to stay under developed is it not? Unless it is being used use SW food to the maximum. 

As it turns out I lost 2.5lbs, which I was actually quite pleased about, as apart from the blips in the week, i was out on Sunday and whilst I did try to make good choices, i had  a fish starter and main there was lots of bread, warm and inviting which in the end I did not resist, and then there was the champagne. It was that type of outing. 

so what are my plans for this week... i find a good break fast usually helps, when i was really good at SW, i used to have breakfast before i left home, but that has become rather difficult now, so its when i get to work, sometimes though i must supplement with a hi fi bar on the way.