War against indiscipline: Temper tantrums

Right, I went to SW on Monday only to find that I had put on 2lbs, and I was mad, really mad, I think the biggest saving grace is that we had a visiting consultant, so I had to mind my Ps and Qs.  Now, don’t get me wrong I am in no way saying that the plan does not work, but rather that I felt I knew that I had done well, I knew that I had stuck to it and counted my syns, so I felt it was unjust and any injustice makes me wanna shout. So upon reflection, thinking and recalling and all that mind work I decided it was because I was out on Saturday and did not do my normal party trick of eating before going to the party! I did take my own drink, either way even though I can’t know for sure, am pretty certain that I did not notch up 100+ syns!  Anyway now it’s Wednesday and I’m still mad, I have gone on strike from SW, I am almost defiant. I know its irrational, and that I am throwing the proverbial baby out with the bathwater, and worse I am going to pay for it next week, but I just cant seem to help it. On Tuesday, I was out of control and participated in all sorts of birthday celebrations ( yes including those of the Cadbury persuasion) Stuff I would not ordinarily do. As for today, well I shouldn’t  mention really, so please don’t tell anyone but I have been a naughty naughty defiant girl. Now how do I stop this undisciplined attitude, its pure petulance and I am the one in the wrong.  I do love SW as a diet plan  , but sometimes it just keeps me hanging on.

Ok, so Liverpool thrashing Arsenal 5-1 actually got me thinking about my slimming world journey, it has been long and sometimes very tortuous trip and at times given me very little return for my efforts,  ( or so I feel) but the truth is I love Slimming world and I have adopted it as away of life.  At half time Liverpool were up 4-0 and the pundit said that come the second half Arsenal can only think and act as if its 0-0 for them to have any chance of a comeback. The other Pundit then put it that well Liverpool may well come out as if its 0-0.  And that is the point, you have to put your past behind you whether its success or as in the case of Arsenal failure and ineptness.  For me each week is a battle in my personal war against my indiscipline, its sometimes very easy for me to get bogged down with it all, sometimes I want to be social at work and have the birthday donut or cake, or have some team biscuits. Its frustrating, but I also know its just pure indiscipline so I am forever striving to work to side step these issues. Let’s face it sometimes only the donut will do, but other times its just greedy. Either way what ever my choice good or bad, I have to learn to leave it where it is.  No that does not mean that I can eat krispy creme donuts every day on this basis, as there would be consequences, this is about limiting damage and not undermining the ability to improve and make better choices going forward just because I had a bad day or made a couple of poor choices. 

In recent weeks I have taken to batch cooking, making several dishes and separating them ready for the week ahead! That’s the good bit, however, one is invariably preparing before you have seen the results of the current week, and that makes it really quite difficult for many different reasons. But you know what I just have to keep trying and not allowing myself to be derailed by life’s events. 

Until the next time.